yea .. i have been sick with a fucking infection in my right lung... it is annoying now but not as bad as it was not too long ago.. and everything with Tyler is going absolutely amazingly.... YAY
....Survey of Death... (literally)I BET YOU CAN"T DO IT!!!
001. What is your name? Kirstin
002. Spell your name backwards: Nitsrik
003. Date of birth: 12/24/1987
004. Male or female? female
005. Astrological sign: Capricorn
006. Nicknames: Kit.. Kirsti... Kitty.. Miny T... Enrique... and all of the sweet things you call me
007. Occupation: student
008. Height: 5'3"
010. Hair color: Light Copper Mahogany Brown
011. Eye color: blue
012. Where were you born? Willingboro, NJ hospital
013. Where do you reside now? Lebanon, Pa
014. Age: 17
015. Screen names: CutMeOut OfPaper and FullOf TOXIClies
016. E-mail addy: ifihadakitty@yahoo.com and intoxicatingform@comcast.net
017. What does your screen name stand for? I was thinking about cutting out paper people and then was trying to think of a new screen name because i was sick of the toxic theme ...
018. What is your Live Journal name? ifihadakitty
019. What does your diary name stand for? a song that Jes and i would sing
020. Pets: 2 cats. 2 chickens. a rooster. 3 bunnies
021. Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake? 2 because they were the number candles
022. Piercings? 12
023. Tattoos? none yet
024. Shoe size: vans 7 cons 6 1/2 (but my cons are big on me)
025. Righty or lefty? righty
026. Wearing: black pants with purple hand prints on the butt.. a green long sleeve shirt and an orange one over it
027. Hearing: The Spill Canvas
028. Feeling: tired, sore, and happy
029. Eating/drinking: nothing yet
RELATIONSHIPS
061. Have you ever been in love? yes
062. How many people have you told? i have told him
063. How many people have you been in love with? one because the other was a load of shit
064. How many people have you kissed? i honestly do not know the answer to that.
65. Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex? yes
66.How many people have you dated? i dont know right now
067. What do you look for in a guy/girl? that i know they will be amazing and treat me like i mean the world to them...
068. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? eyes
069. What type of guy/girl do you usually go for? a type? no
070. Do you have a bf/gf? yes ma'am i do or sir
071. If so where did you meet them? none of your business
072. What do you like most about your bf/gf? that he makes me feel so amazing
073. Do you have a crush right now? its more than something silly like that
074. If so who is it? Tyler
075. Do you believe in love at first sight? yes
076. Do you remember your first love? yes
077. Who is the first person you kissed? his name was Scott
078. Do you believe in fate? yes
079. Do you believe in soul mates? yes
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FAMILY
104. How many siblings do you have? 1 sister. 1 half sister. 2 step sisters. 2 step brothers.. and my dad's fiancee's 2 girls
105. How many children would you like to have? dont know...
106. What would you name them? not sure
107. How many siblings does your mother have? 3
108. How many siblings does your father have? none
109. Where are your parents from ? my mom is from New Jersey.. and my dad from PA
110. Is your family close? umm my dads side ... and him and my mom arent
111. Does your family get together for holidays? my dads side
112. Do you have a drunk uncle? no
113. Any medical problems run through your family? yes
114. Does someone in your family wear a toupee? no
115. Do you have any nieces or nephews? no and i hope i dont anytime soon .. AHEM!
116. Are your parents divorced? yes
117. Do you have step parents? yes
118. Has your family ever disowned another member of your family? my mom disowned her step children
119. If so for what? they just never got along well
120. Did some of your family come to America from another country? my great grandparents on my moms side.. and from Italy
MUSIC
121. What song do you swear was written about you or your life? i dont have on like that
122. What's the most embarrasing cd you own? none
123. What's the best cd you own? i have a lot that are just amazing
124. What song do you absolutely hate? umm that closet one...
125. Do you sing in the shower? sometimes
126. What song reminds you of that special someone? i just know its bright eyes...
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FAVORITES
152. Color: neon green
153. Food: it changes every so often
154. Song: i have a lot
155. Show: i dont watch tv
156. School subject: i dont have one
157. Band/singer: ugh i dont know
158. Animal: Ducks
159. Outfit: dont have a fave outfit
160. Radio station: dont listen to the radio just my cds
161. Movie: the crow.. .and more
162. Pair of shoes: my unique vans and cons
163. Cartoon: family guy
164. Actor: i forget his name but he is murder by numbers... he plays Justin
165. Actress: Angelina Jolie
166. Potato chip: uhhh idk.. i dont like chips
167. Drink: tea
168. Alcholic: ugh
169. Holiday: holloween
170. Perfume/cologne: dont wear any ..
171. Pizza topping: none
172. Jello flavor: dont eat jello ICK
173. Lunch meat: I dont eat meat
174. Board game: who knows
175. Video game: ninja turtles and dr.mario
176. website: myspace and xanga
177. Book: vampire novels
178. Computer game: i like to try new ones but its this fishy one
179. Number: 17
180. Cereal: cinnimon life
181. Comedian: dont have one
182. Dessert: i cant choose
183. Disney character: Alice
184. Clothing store: it varies
185. Pastime: too hard
186. Teacher: Mrs. Lukridge
187. Childhood toy: umm not sure
188. Carnival game/ride: i dont have one
189. Candy bar: twix
190. Magazine: revolver
191. Salad dressing: italian
192. Thing to do on the weekend: Tyler
193. Hot drink: Green Tea
194. Season: Autumn
195. Sport to watch: dont have one..
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SLEEP
197. What color are your sheets? they change constantly.. i am not a constant person
198. What color are your bedroom walls? i honestly dont know.. i just moved into the room
199. Do you have posters on your wall? not yet
(200?)
201. Do you have a tv in your bedroom? nope
202. How many pillows are on your bed? i think like 7 or 8
203. What do you normally sleep in? gray pants and a white hanes tee
204. Describe your favorite pair of pajamas: ^^those
205. What size bed do you have? i think it is queen
206. Do you have a waterbed/bunkbed/daybed? a normal one
207. Do you have your own phone line in your bedroom? no but the one phone is in my room
208. Do you listen to music while trying to fall asleep? yes because it helps to keep my anxiety at bay
209. Describe the last nightmare you had: ummm cant think
210. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? yes mittens the creepy kitty .. and Melvin the Moose
211. How many people can comfortably sleep in your bed? 2
212. Do you sleep in any unusual positions? not sure i cant see myself when i sleep
213. Do you have to share your bedroom with a sibling? no
214. Do you snore? no
215. How about drool? uh uh
216. Do you have an alarm clock in your room? yes
217. What color is the carpet in your room? i think it is a cream color
218. What's under your bed? dont know
THIS OR THAT
219. Coke/Pepsi: coke
220. Doughnuts/bagels: bagels
221. Day/night: night
222. Wicked witch of the east/wicked witch of the west: they both are evil so who cares and they both die
223. Heaven/hell: neither
224. Hugs/Kisses: both
225. Coffee/tea: mmm i like both
226. Hamburgers/hotdogs: EWW no meat
227. Rap/rock: Rock
228. Britney/Christina: Neither
229. Swiss cheese/american cheese: american
230. Real World/Road Rules: neither
231. Backstreet Boys/*Nsync: neither
232. Silver/gold: dont care
233. Nike/Adidas: neither
234. McDonalds/Taco Bell: ICK i hate fast food
235. Sweet/sour: sweet
236. Punk/emo: both
237. Hot/cold: hot
238. Winter/summer: summer
239. Spring/fall: fall
240. Operas/plays: plays
241. Read/watch tv: read
242. Cd's/tapes: CD
243. Dvd's/vhs: DVD
244. Old/new: depends on what it is
245. Shorts/skirts: shorts
246. Pink/red: pink
247. Colored pictures/black and white photos: both it depends on what the picture is of
248. Meat/vegetables: veggies
249. Mexican food/chinese food: umm
250. Commercials/infomercials: neither thank you
251. Scary movies/comedies: both!!
252. Bikinis/one piece bathing suits: Bakinis
253. Sandals/tennis shoes: neither
254. Dogs/cats: both
255. Unicorns/fairies: faeries
256. Water/land: both
257. Sugar/spice: sugar
258. Black/white: black
259. Ribbons/bows: ribbon
260. Chicken/beef: neither!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
261. Colored christmas lights/regular white christmas lights: dont matter
262. Cars/trucks: cars
263. Austin Powers/James Bond: Austin Powers
264. Popcorn/pretzels: pretzels
265. Hip-hop/Rock: Rock
266. Passionate kiss/peck: passionate kiss
267. WWE wrestling/ real wrestling: neither
268. Back rub/foot massage: back rub
269. Picture frames/photo albums: photo albums
270. Pens/pencils: pens unless i am drawing
OPINIONS
271. Eminem: dont like em
272. Virgins?: i dont know...
273. God: ummmm
274. The Osbournes: different
275. Reality TV: ick
276. J.Lo: divorced and married too many times in that short period: who gives a fuck
277. Religion: dont have one
278. Emo music: aww yay
279. Valentine's Day: its always been sad for me
280. Christina Aguilera's comeback: once again i dont care
281. Homosexuals: i love em
282. Abortion: i will not tell another person what to do with their body
283. Inter-racial relationships: not hurting me so go for it
284. Murder: bloody
285. Death: inevitable.
286. Obesity: taste good dont it... ick
287. Pre-marital sex: why not?
288. Terrorism: ugh
289. Pornography: if you say so
290. Fortune tellers: ok then
291. Threesomes: umm no thank you
292. Prostitution: poor people
294. Country music: ick
295. George W. Bush: dont care
296. Cloning: no thoughts
297. Britney's boobs: who gives a fuck ... NOT ME
298. Gas prices in America: rediculous
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HAVE YOU EVER
331. Mooned anyone? yes Kari
332. Been on a diet? no
333. Been to a foreign country? yes, if canada counts.
334. Broken a bone? no
335. Swallowed a tooth/cap/filling? no.
336. Swear at a teacher? no
337. Talked to an LJ member via e-mails or instant messages? yes
338. Got in a fight? yes
339. Dated a teacher? no
340. Laughed so hard you peed your pants? no
342. Gone skinny dipping? no
343. Met another LJ member in the flesh? yea, but i alreayd knew them
344. Told a little white lie? yes who hasnt?
345. Told a secret you swore not to tell? yes
346. Used a foreign object to masturbate? no
347. Misused a swear word and it sounded absolutely stupid? no
348. Been on tv? no
349. Been on the radio? no
350. Been in a mosh pit? no
351. Been to a concert? yes
352. Dated one of your best friends? yes
353. Loved someone so much it makes you cry? yes
354. Decieved somebody close to you? no
355. Broken the law? yes
356. Been to a rodeo? no
357. Been on a talk show? no
358. Been on a game show? no
359. Been on an airplane? no
360. Got to ride on a firetruck? no
361. Came close to dying? yes
362. Cheated on a bf/gf? No
363. Gave someone a piggy back ride? yes
364. Terrorized a babysitter? not that i remember.
365. Made a mud pie? yes
366. Had a dream that you're falling off a cliff? no but jumping off a stair case yes
367. Snuck out of the house at night? not mine but Jes'
368. Been so drunk you don't remember your name? i dont know .. did i remember my name that night????
369. Had an eating disorder? no
370. Felt like you didn't belong? yes
371. Felt like the 3rd wheel? yes
372. Smoked? yes
373. Done drugs? yes
374. Stolen money from a poor person begging on the streets? thats aweful... NO
375. Had your tonsils removed? no
376. Gone to camp? no
377. Won a bet? yes HAHAHA the weirdest one too
378. Written a love letter? yes
379. Gone out of your way to be with the one you love? not yet
380. Written a love poem? yes
381. Kissed in the rain? yes
382. Slow danced with someone you love? no
383. Participated in cyber sex? no
384. Faked an orgasm? no
385. Stolen a kiss? yes
386. Asked a friend for relationship advice? yes
387. Had a friend steal your bf/gf? yes
388. Watched the sunset/rise with someone you love? no
389. Gotten a speeding ticket? no
390. Done jail time? yes hours worth
391. Had to wear a uniform to work? never had a job
392. Won a trophy? no
393. Thrown up in public? yes
394. Bowled a perfect game? haha no
395. Failed/got held back? yes
396. Got perfect attendance in grade school? yes
397. Roasted pumpkin seeds? yes
398. Taken ballet lessons? no
399. Attempted suicide? no
400. Cut yourself? yes
CHILDHOOD
401. Did you play with Barbies? yea with my sister
402. Did you own Treasure Trolls? yes
403. Did you watch Beverly Hills 90210? yes
404. Did you play Simon Says? yes
405. Did you watch Fraggle Rock? uhhh no.
406. Did you wet the bed? yes
407. Did you believe there were monsters in your closet or under your bed? yes
408. Did you wear the underwear with the days of the week on them? no
409. Were you shy? yea and i still am at times.
410. Were you spoiled? yes
411. Were you abused? no
412. Did you go to the circus? yes
413. Did you go to the zoo? yes
414. Were you in a car accident? no
415. Did you build snowmen? yes
416. Did you cry when you scraped your knee? can remember
417. Were your older cousins mean to you? no
418. Did you think slinkies were cool? yea and i still do!
419. Did you think the Ninja Turtles really lived in the sewer? no but i loved them
420. Were you afraid of the dark? yes
421. Did you have slumber parties? no
422. Did you have New Kids On The Block sheets, curtains, sleeping bags, dolls and pajamas? no
423. Did you tease your hair out like Tiffany? no
424. Did you believe in the Easter Bunny/Santa Claus/ and the Tooth Fairy? yes
RANDOMNESS
425. Do you believe in aliens? dont know
426. Name 3 things that are next to your computer: a box of cereal, phone, digital camera
427. Do you have any hidden talents? no
428. Do you wish MTV would play music videos? dont care
429. If you were to star in a movie, what kind of movie would it be? dont know
430. What would your movie star name be? i have no clue
431. Do you play any sports? no i am lazy
432. What's the scariest movie you've ever seen? umm i dont know they dont scare me
433. What is the best movie you've seen in the theater or rented recently? cant remeber
434. What is the dumbest movie you've ever seen? napoleon dynomite
435. Do you drive? not yet
436. What is your dream car? i dont have one
437. Do you think you're good looking? no
438. Do others think you are good looking? yes
439. Would you ever sky dive? never
440. Do you believe in Bigfoot? no.
441. How many rooms do you have in your house? 16 or something
442. Are you afraid of roller coasters? yes!
443. Do you believe in God? i dont know what i believe
444. Do you believe in Satan? no.
445. Do you believe there is a heaven? no
446. Do you believe there is a hell? no
447. Do you own a pool table? no
448. Do you have a pool? no
449. Do you have a dishwasher in your kitchen? yes but it doesnt work
450. Do you like chocolate? yes
451. Who/what is on your 2004 calendar? i cant remember that now?
452. How many U.S. states have you been to? i dont know
453. Ever wished on a shooting star? yes
454. Best Halloween costume you ever wore? I DO NOT KNOW
456. What is your weakness? fuck off
457. Name something you can't get enough of: you...
458. Describe yourself in 3 adjectives: weird... squeaky... me
459. How many kids do you want to have? i dont know
460. Future daughters names: dont know
461. Future sons names: dont know
462. What is your ideal way to die? STOP IT!
463. How do you release stress? hahaha.. you tell me a good way to and i will try it too
464. Are you a trendy person? i dont fucking know
465. Are you an artistic person? yes
466. Are you a realistic person? yes
467. Do you un-tie your shoes every time you take them off? No
468. Are you a strong person? depends on what is considered strengths
469. Are you a strong willed person? ehh
470. Who is the last person to e-mail you? nic
471. Who is the last person to IM you? imed me??? my sister
472. Do you hate chain e-mails? yes
473. Are you a deep sleeper? sometimes
474. Are you a good story teller? i dont know.. am i?
475. What do you believe is your best quality? i honestly dont know
476. What is your greatest accomplishment? haha ???
477. Do you like to burn candles or incense? candles
478. Do you do yoga? sometimes
479. Do you have your own credit card? no
480. Let's say you win the lotto. What do you do with all that money? honestly dont know
481. Do you have a check book? no
482. Do you like your driver's license picture? no
483. Do you tan easily? yes
484. What color is your hair naturally? blonde
485. How many fillings do you have? 2
486. How many cavities did you have at your last dentist visit? 0
487. Worst feeling in the world? depression and anxiety
488. Best feeling in the world? his arms
489. Is the glass half empty or half full? full
490. Last thing you downloaded? umm i dont know
491. Do you catch yourself using online terms in your real life? No
492. What do you think people think of you? i have no idea.
493. Are you a likeable person? i guess so.
494. Do you need therapy? i am in it now
495. Do you take medication for a chemical imbalance? yes
496. What the best way to be proposed to? any way he wants to
497. If Fed Ex and UPS were to merge, would they call it Fed UPS: what the fuck kind of question is this??
498. When are you moving? not anytime soon
499. What's your favorite phrase? i cant think of it right now
500: Where do you wish you were right now? with him
what the fuck is wrong with me??... i have been such a bitch it isnt funny... well not to other people but when i get in the bitch mode i find it funny how mean i get.. and then i sit back and realize that i just fucking said that .. what he fuck... am i getting that messed up? is it the fact that i bury things deep in the pit of me? ... i have no clue.. i am supposed to be at MJ's right now doing a psych project... but i fucking cant.. oh well... dammit i am sorry for my fucking complaints
For some unexplainable reason it feels as if the world is turning against me.. and i am left to sit here and wonder what the hell i did wrong and to be perfectly honest i did nothing wrong... yes i was going to skip with kyle.. but that does not harm anyone but myself... no i did not talk to kyle about jose.... yes i did reject katie... no i did not just do it at random.. i gave notice.... but that happens in life you know... but i just cannot understand why it is that i feel like people are upset with me or against me.. yes i know there are those of you who are treating me normally .. but this does not concern you ..
how many times did i say goodbye?? shit i dont know.. but you guys keep this stupid shit going... haha... i hate this stupid site.... but i shall go on... because you guys seem to care oh so much ... *big smile* ... yea....
I really cannot stand this feeling... i upset her again.. i confused him.... i hurt myself (not physical)... i ache inside.. and i try to hide it so that they cannot feel it.. but it is so hard to block something like that ... and i would love to just punch myself in the face right about fucking now... yes school is good so far... but fuck ... i want to find HIM.... where is he... i know i have many years.. but i want something close to me.. someone i may call my own and love them .. and they love me back.. and that will hold me for a long time.. and squeaze me to show he means it.... and to just be here... god... but like the song says.... YOU CAN'T ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU WANT....
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